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November 7th, 2005

Losing Control

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WTF, Surprised, Shocked, Scared
I don’t like losing control. It’s no fun. Not for me, not for anybody else. My sensei attempted to stress self-control – physically, mentally, emotionally. It—it’s one of those sticking points, I guess. I don’t like admitting that I’ve got a problem with much of anything, but – not following my first impulse can be difficult.

I mean, let’s be honest here. I’m easy to provoke. If you know what buttons to push, you can send me snarling over the edge with a few sharp words. Mustang got me bad that time, and I lost my ass in the arena because of it. Sure, it was a nice display and all that and I still kept my certification, but… I lost control. To Mustang That was galling!

Especially in public. Especially when he was talking about his ‘rules of war’ and that was one of them! Not losing your temper was one of those rules!

Ahh, thinking about it burns me up so bad. Next time, I’ll show him – if there’s ever a next time. Sometimes I don’t think either of us will live to see the next certification!

Edward Elric
Fullmetal Alchemist
188 Words

September 21st, 2005

“Do you know anything about the Philsopher’s Stone?”

Over and over, that question’s asked. Alchemists answer it with suspicion, maybe hope, cunning, and desire. Military men with wariness, and often disbelief. But for a mythical artifact, a lot of people are interested in that damn rock.

Including myself; not really for me – I mean, I want to kiss this automail good bye. But I really want to put Al to rights, to fix my mistake.

So, if I could know anything – I’d want to know more. More about the damn stone, about a solution for Al – if ANYONE knew of such a thing, I’d give my other arm and leg to know about it. It’s save Al, it might fix me, it’d release us from this ceaseless journey.

I want to know that one fact: Do you know what can save us, do you know about the Stone? If I could know that, I’d be ahead of the game – and hopefully, not chasing my own damn tail so often.

Edward Elric
Fullmetal Alchemist
Words: 169

September 11th, 2005

Man -- That's happened a lot lately. Not always a bad thing; I mean, recently Winry proved she was really strong, and she's going forward with her life -- and I'm happy for her.

But honestly, the person I thought I knew -- and didn't, and then found out I didn't again -- it's always that bastard Colonel. He's always the one.

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Muse: Ed Elric
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist
Words: 343

September 3rd, 2005

Man; this is gonna sound so sappy -- please don't let Al read this, please -- but -- I really would have to say that he's my strength.

I know, I know. Stupid. But this is a stupid topic and I've gotta answer honestly, right? It's not the alchemy -- I mean, sure. I'm good. I'm damn good. Maybe even the best. Few could outpace me! Certainly no one I know, except maybe Izumi-sensei. But -- really -- I mean -- this --

It's him. Without him, I wouldn't do anything. I would have given up before I got started. But he needs me to take care of this, to go forward, to take on the leash and collar of the State Alchemist. And for him, I can be strong enough do those things. I don't think I could be, for anybody else. It's all for Alphonse. Without his support, we would have fallen by now. I would have given up by now. We would have really failed. I would have failed.

I don’t think he knows how important he is. That we couldn’t have come this far without each other, without him. I know he feels, sometimes, he’s in my shadow... But that’s not true at all. But I refuse to say anything sappy about it.

He’s – just what I need to go forward. That’s all. We’re brothers; that’s what we’re supposed to do for each other, isn’t it?
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